Life Happens

Do you ever feel like you are not at a point in your life,that you thought you would be at? I can not be the only person who has felt like this at some point or another, right?

Maybe, you know exactly what I am talking about, it might go something like this…..

  • I thought I would be independently wealthy by thirty-five
  • I thought I would have three kids by thirty-two
  • I thought I would be married by twenty-five
  • I thought I would be a homeowner by twenty-seven
  • I thought I would be the CEO at work by thirty-nine
  • I thought I would have way more flexibility with my life by now
  • I thought I would have life figured out

Sound familiar? Good, I am glad, I am not alone on this one. We have all of these grandiose plans for ourselves and the way our life “should” look and I truly applaud that! I mean, what is a goal, without a plan? Well, they say it’s just a wish. I don’t know about you but I do not always want to be wishing. Wishing, that something in my life was different than it actually was. So I set goals, realistic and attainable goals. Some of these goals may materialize faster than others but the sad truth is, some do not conform to the timeline, I want, which is okay.

The question though, is why do we torture ourselves setting timelines based loosely on social norms? Especially, when our current reality does not make these goals attainable at that particular time.

  • Be married by twenty-five
  • Have three kids by thirty
  • Have a career by twenty-three
  • Purchase a home by twenty-four

I mean, I would be concerned if you did not have some sort of idea of where you wanted to be and when but it does not have to be written in stone and can be ever-changing if you choose.

So what if you do not know where you want to work, who you are going to marry, when you are going to have kids. Accomplishing these things does not make you more righteous, happier or more successful. There, I let the cat out of the bag.

The problem is that when we are painting our future portraits out, of what our life “should” look like it occasionally gets paint splattered on it, “messing” up what we are trying to create. When this happens to us and I know it must have happened at least one time, self loathing becomes a bitter reality but the real question is why?

As John Lennon sings in his song “Beautiful Boy”,

“Life is what happens to you while you’re busy making other plans.”

Read that one more time.

“Life is what happens to you while you’re busy making other plans.”

  • I am not independently wealthy and I am over thirty-five
  • I do not have three kids and I am over thirty-two
  • I don’t even have a boyfriend so I am certainly not married by twenty-five
  • I am not a homeowner by twenty-seven
  • I am not satisfied with my career by now
  • I am not at my goal weight
  • I have very limited flexibility with my life right now

We destroy ourselves internally because we associate missing our personal timelines as a personal failure. What is it about missing our goals that creates this disappointment that literally drives us mad? Who gave us these ideas that we had to be married, have kids, have a house do this or do that by a certain age? When people do not make their visions of their life a reality they go down some really dark and ugly paths. All because of a missed date. We participate in paralyzing, damaging and very negative self talk. Our own worst enemy should never be ourself.

Who is responsible for making us believe that these things have to be achieved by a certain time or we are failures? I mean that seems to be the biggest problem with not meeting our goals, that we are considered a failure because of the norms set by our society.

I have learned that by not setting unrealistic “realistic” expectations for ourselves is the best way to avoid feeling disappointed because we are not where we are on “society’s” timeline.

Listen, no one likes to feel as if they are stuck or have failed in any piece of their life but if you are feeling this way take some time and really dive into why you might be disappointed or let down by where your life is, at the moment.

Imagine, what could be avoided, if we just stopped putting age restrictions on when we attain certain things in our lives. When we become a wife, mother, homeowner or anything else for that matter does not have to be by a certain age. It just needs to be whenever we are ready and truly happy.

Again, as John Lennon sings in his song “Beautiful Boy”, “Life is what happens to you while you’re busy making other plans.” so make a promise to yourself to just enjoy where you are at, right now, regardless of where you want to be.

Never lose sight of the fact that each stepping stone has a purpose and if we do not appreciate the journey, will we ever actually “make it” to where we are intended to go?

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Held Up…5 Ways to Let Go

What are you held up on?

If you are like most people, you probably have something that holds you back. It could be anything really. Most of the time we are self-aware and know what it is but sometimes we are just stuck and have no idea why.

Take a minute to identify your hold up…….Don’t have one? Stop lying, we all do and I still love ya!

These hold ups can be literally ANYTHING! Something from childhood, our teen years or even our adult life which shapes and defines who we are/become. Sometimes it can be a positive and well sometimes it can be a negative. It is the negative side of being held up that is detrimental to our psyche. The negatives are what need to be released ASAP, if you want to live your best life.

For a large majority of my twenties I was held up on what other people thought. Big mistake. I realize this is too common, as I speak with other women and they utter the exact same thing. Looking back, as I get closer to my thirty-fifth year, I wonder why I spent so long caring what other people thought about my life’s decisions. Key word MY. I mean I have always had this certainty about myself, yet for some reason this was a factor in my life, which made me feel insecure. What if this person says this, or that person says that….It did not matter what it was in regards to, I cared and I don’t know why.

It might have been about my college path, career choice, take this job or that one, buy this big item or don’t. I always felt like it mattered what others thought. What was my problem and why couldn’t I manage to just stick with what I wanted in my heart? What kept me so held up on caring about the opinions of others? To this day, I still have no legit answer for that.

When I finally got to that point where I just didn’t give a fuck anymore , about other people’s thoughts, in regards to my life’s decisions, I finally reclaimed ownership of my life. What a feeling of freedom. I will never turn back to that point of needing other’s approval. Never.

Crystle, you have another car? Crystle, you should really do this, Crystle, you should really have your children here or there, Crystle, why are you bottle feeding? Crystle, this and Crystle that the list goes on and on. In the grand scheme of things, it was dumb shit but I would second guess my own decisions and that is where the hold up, held on.

It was overwhelming, depressing even, just waiting for the avalanche of unwelcome opinions. All because I was investing time in caring, about whether others disapproved or not.

So, the question is this. Do you find yourself ruminating over things, it can literally be anything? If so, here are five ways to easily help yourself, as you work towards reclaiming your life and feeling confident enough to finally break up with your hold ups.

  1. Don’t accept your situation if you are unhappy.

Fuck, if you are unhappy and can acknowledge that, you are already ahead of the game, so congrats! Time to put your big girl/boy pants on and keep moving forward.

2. Take control of your OWN happiness

STOP! Repeat after me, STOP blaming other people for the way your life currently is. You are the one who is in control, no one else. You are not unhappy because your boss sucks. You are unhappy because you know you should move on but can’t/won’t. It’s time to own our happiness.

3. Don’t be afraid to fail

For real, Nike was on to something. Just Do It. Failure, who cares? You will have no regrets later. I opened a mobile clothing boutique (Styles for Miles) because I had a dream, a literal dream. I know this is played out but YOLO (you only live once) so like Nike says, Just Do It! Work hard, be passionate and work harder (insert tears, panic, blood and a lot of other shit in between.) There will be success, no doubt. Keep working.

4. Avoid comparing yourself with other people

Honestly, who gives a shit about your neighbor “insert name here” who is perfect and has it all. Most likely, she’s held up on the fact that she’s not you (no lie, ask her when you’re all drunk on that Rose.) I bet she’ll say she admires YOUR life….Weird shit, right? The kiss of death lies with the fact, that we aren’t cool with who we are. Be cool, own your shit. I am seriously an open book, filled with crazy but I don’t care what other people do, have, said or whatever else gets us all bothered. Fuck em’ as I say often, I would be friends with me (hahahaha.)

5. Find your own definition of success, not what society says

I could spend all day on this. Who gives a shit if Aunt Ethel thinks you should be a housewife, if you want to be a professional mermaid, chef, world traveler, whatever it is, go for it. There is NOTHING to lose, you only gain regret and that SUCKS. That business that sounds so crazy to Uncle Stew, tell him to suck it. Well maybe not, but you can always apologize later, so go for it if you are feeling extra bold. I’m like 18% kidding about disrespecting relatives but the point is, just do what YOU need to do, to feel like you’ve made it. That definition is subjective. BE SUBJECTIVE.

The longer we are held up, the more time we are not living our best life. Remember time is not guaranteed. Let shit go, do what you want to do and just be a good human.

Moms don’t Punch Out

Welch’s juice company, just released their findings, to a new study and I have to admit, I am not surprised. I was however elated to see that others are in agreeance, when it comes to how many hours a mom is truly working (quiet cheers.)

I always realized from a young age that mothers (and dads too) work really hard (even an observant child can see that.) I actually remember pre (my own) kids taking care of my three cousins for a few days and thinking, OMG I need a frigging dozen naps! Everything, that I did over those few days, made me realize that every mother is pretty much a Patron Saint. It was literally exhausting and they were good kids!

Women around the world have been taking care of  their kids, cooking, cleaning, chauffeuring kids, working their “actual job”  and the list goes on and on for centuries now. Since becoming a mom myself almost nine years ago, I have one observation. Most days it is a miracle if my eyes are still open after nine. That time of night has slowly decreased, as I have produced more tiny humans hahaha. It is now like 7:45 pm.

According to the survey findings, Welchs Juice Company discovered, ( I don’t think this was a secret) that most moms begin their day at around 6:30am and continue “working” until around 8:30 pm. Obviously this is seven days a week, which is equivalent to working about two and a half FULL TIME jobs. I haven’t received my retro check in years, WTF! Cha-Ching! I bet I’m a millionaire when I finally get that check! 

Even on my most stressful days, I would not change any of that for the world. Seriously, the pile(s) of laundry, overflowing sink, endless to-do list(s) are all part of the most incredible job in the world. Being a mom just can’t be compared to anything on Earth really. Maybe something but we won’t get into that haha.

Okay, okay, Crystle stop lying.

I’m not a  fulltime Pinterest mom, I admit it.  However, I am not trying to pull the wool over anyone’s eyes either. This so-called “job” aka being a mom is the most incredible thing I have ever done.

It is also the hardest thing I have ever done. No complaints, because at the end of the day it is a true blessing. Most days are a challenge and there is pretty much nothing glamorous about exploding diapers, sickness or having bags under your eyes. Yet,  every single day for me, is another day of working towards being a good mom, wife, employee, business owner and other things. Despite the constant challenges I get the entire picture, so here it is

*Disclaimer- haters back off, we already know, we choose to have kids, so I said it for you. Carry on, Keyboard Warrior. 

The God’s honest truth is, I didn’t feel like my life had much value or purpose for a very long time, until I had my kids. It was like self discovery and a really quick reality check on steroids.

Like hey! Get your shit together, no time for bullshit and just take care of your kids. They are the only thing that matters. They are going to love you when you are at your best and Lord knows, they are going to love you at your worst. No one else is going to do that. I thank God for that everyday.

My kids are the only people right now on this planet who genuinely don’t care about my failures, my inability to have everything done daily, staying up to date with laundry, cleaning the house, cooking a gourmet meal or really any of that stuff that we become fixated with. Like most kids they only care about YOU, no judgements or stipulations attached to that either. There is non of the nonsense that we become consumed with accompanying our kids love. I mean what other boss at a fulltime job actually cares about and loves you, like your kids do? Cricketts.

So when it comes to working 2.5 full time jobs, I’ll work forever. I don’t care. I don’t care that I am tired, I have coffee. I don’t care that I am not accomplishing most things,  there is always tomorrow. I don’t care that I am not making gourmet meals, there is always delivery. I don’t care about mopping my floors right this minute, there is always later.

I want to do the best I can at this job, even on the days when I want to call out or quit, I still find a way to make it all work.  It is miraculous that my tiny bosses know when I need them the most. Delivering my paycheck in the kid version of Bitcoin aka hugs and kisses and saying I love you without reservation. That makes it all worth it.

So mamas out there. Don’t be consumed with the research, even if we finally have a pat on the back that we deserve. Be consumed with the fact that we have the most important job in the world. Our job is priceless and even on the worst days, we should feel grateful to be employed, by the best bosses out there. Our little babies only need dedicated employees.

Continue “Doing Life” your way, not theirs. 

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You’re Never too Old to Live.

I am guilty of saying “I’m too old for that.” There I said it!

I know a lot of people are guilty of proclaiming the same. The question is why?

We have this conviction, that sidelines us too easily. It has to do with our age and we let it determine what we should and should not do way too often. 

As I peeled back the layers to try to decide where I stood on this, I came to the conclusion that it is just an excuse.

Humans love excuses, they keep us safe and comfortable. Yay, for our brains working properly!

The question is, since when are people too old, to live? It doesn’t matter what it is in regards to, we have these limiting boundaries that we self create. We should live our best life, everyday regardless of a number.

If there is something that ignites your soul, why shouldn’t you just go for it? Since when does seizing opportunity, having fun, learning, participating in new experiences or anything for that matter have an age limit?

The fact of the matter, is it doesn’t. We need to step away from using this as an excuse because it’s getting old (get it, haha.) Being too old should never be an excuse, for not chasing after the things we want in our life.

Nola Ochs, a ninety-five year old woman, made the Guinness Book of World Records, for being the oldest woman to earn a college degree.

Can you still say, “I’m too old to go back to college?”

You can, but it’s just an excuse.

Bryson William Verdun Hayes, a one hundred and one year old man, holds the record for  being the oldest skydiver.

Can you still say, “I’m too old for adventure?”

You can, but it’s just an excuse.

Loren Wade, a one hundred and two-year old man, still goes to work at Wal-Mart everyday.

Can you still say, “I’m too old to go to work?”

You can, but it’s just an excuse

(Honestly, that might not be the best example because I hope to be retired at that point,  so I guess that’s my excuse about working past a certain age.)

Harriette Thompson, at ninety-two years old finished a full marathon in under eight hours.

Can you still say, “I’m too old to workout?”

You can, but it’s just an excuse.

A British couple was named the world’s oldest newlyweds, after they tied the knot at one hundred and three and ninety-one years old.

Can you still say, “I’m too old to find love?”

You can, but it’s just an excuse.

The point is, humans have this innate ability to want to keep themselves safe. I get it. We do this in a variety of ways every single day in order to keep “safe.” Safe in my opinion means we aren’t experiencing our life to the fullest if we are denying ourselves opportunity.

The sooner we break out of our comfort zones and stop making excuses for ourselves, the sooner we can live a fuller life. Go after the things you want in your life. It is important not to limit ourselves, because of our age. We are never too old to live. If we’re not living now, we’re never too old to start. Today is your day.

Continue “Doing Life, your way, not theirs.”

 

 

 

 

Quick Ten- Alyssa

Alyssa

Please provide us with some biographical information 

Hey, everyone! My name is Alyssa and I am 25 years old. My family, boyfriend, and friends are the most important people in my life. I am the youngest sibling in my family  (therefore I am the spoiled rotten one). I am a middle school teacher who teaches 8th graders (yes, I WANTED to teach middle school. . . Crazy, right?!). Fun facts: I have two fat cats (weighing close to 25 pounds each) and I LOVE sunflowers (I guess that one is not necessarily fun).

Are you doing what you truly want to do? Yes/No. Explain.

Yes, I am doing what I truly want to do. I’ve always wanted to be a teacher and do believe I was born to be one. I absolutely love working with youngins on a daily basis (hopefully it keeps me young for years to come — and I always enjoy going to work each day). I am also able to make and spend time with the most important people in my life. And, finally, the most important thing I do is take a vacation somewhere around the world every summer (it’s good for the soul, and it’s my treat to myself for working hard all year long).

 How many promises have you made and how many have you fulfilled?

I do not make an excessive amount of promises because I only make promise when I am positive I will fulfill it.

 Will you break the rules because of something/someone you care about?

Hm. Well, that really depends on what rule is being broken and what the situation is, but I will do just about anything for the people I care about in my life. If I am able to impact someone positively without hurting another person then absolutely, YES.

Is there anything you can’t let get of but you know that you should?

I believe that everyone has things they can’t, but should, let go of; whether small or large, so yes.

Do you remember anyone you strongly dislike/hated 10 years ago? Does it matter now?

Haha, yes, I do and it does not matter whatsoever because some people are meant to be in your life while others are not. Sometimes it just takes time and maturity to figure this one out. Someone you thought would forever be in your life might not always be; Although this could be devastating at first, time truly does heal everything  (sometimes it takes massive amounts of time, but time nevertheless).

If you died today, would you have any regrets?

No, no regrets at all, just many unfulfilled hopes and dreams.

 Are you afraid of making mistakes even though there is no punishment at all?

I would say no because I learn and improve myself from my mistakes.

What’s the difference between you and most of the other people out there?

I believe that each and every person is unique and has some purpose in this world, but this is a tough question to answer about myself. I’m really not sure.

 If today was the end of the world, what would you do and why.

Spend it with those who are most important to me and just sit and talk about memories (maybe even watch a few home videos) because it’s the PEOPLE in my life who fill me with joy each and every day.

Live Your Best Life, Letting Go.

As I learn more and more about myself and my emotional intelligence, I have realized that one thing, had been holding my emotional growth hostage. I had this one thorn, unknowingly, paining me for way too long. It was time to pull  the proverbial thorn out of my side and finally start healing. If I wanted to start living my best life, I had to let go.

I was ready to admit and face the fact that the absence of my dad had  impacted several aspects of my life, without me even knowing. Staying strong and playing cool no longer served me, deep down I was in pain and hurting. AHHH….That feels nice to say.

I masked my hurt and pain because I had developed this very shitty system of coping. A system that “worked” for a while as I easily glided through the day-to-day. If anything/anyone tried to break my system, well good luck, wasn’t happening.  The song Butterfly Kisses, by Bob Carlisle, well it was on my do not play list FOREVER! See, you can’t be hurt, if you don’t face any pain. Perfect plan. NOT. Smooth sailing doesn’t rock boats if ya catch my drift.

I was like Fort Knox. Such an ugly way to live honestly.  I didn’t trust (new) people easily, accept (new) people until I felt comfortable, I had a hard time, expressing certain emotions and being vulnerable. I had been refusing, for all of those years, to acknowledge my loss, which caused me pain and hurt. Therefore, I stalled myself emotionally by ignoring what was truly going on. I was hurt. I realize now, how detrimental stuffing it down, had been in my life. There is no longer room for hurt in my life. I had to focus on my children and my husband and only share my happiness with them. The question at the time was how?

When I realigned the way I viewed my pain, and focused on growing from it,  my life dramatically changed. My relationship with my kids grew stronger, more importantly my relationship with my husband improved too. Being that I was emotionally unavailable at times, there was a period of time where we suffered. We had a rocky period, which in turn caused a great deal of growth. I am so grateful that we experienced my awakening together. I needed to let go, of the true hold up, if I wanted to save and nurture our relationship. I made a vow to be more open and to release my shit. Free from the baggage that littered my heart at the time, we were able to forge our new path together.

Without that rocky time I would not have realized how badly I needed to change. I was “fine” with navigating my life the way I always had. The truth is I wasn’t fine. I was far from fine, I was just doing the best I could, with what I had and I was just barely surviving emotionally.

I am so grateful for that experience because I wouldn’t have become a better woman, wife or mother. I would have been a divorced, single mom if I didn’t open myself up. I knew I didn’t want that. I just had no idea what I was supposed to do, I just knew that I wouldn’t quit. That was enough motivation to dig deep and start dealing with shit. It was time to let go.

I mean I knew in my heart that I was the only one responsible for pushing through my own pain. I was the only one in charge of my life. Holding onto hurt and letting pain overrun me became a huge stonewall in my life.

We should not continue to let pain multiply. My pain would have been immense, if I chose not to learn and move forward from it. I knew the only direction I wanted to go in was forward. I had already lived way too many years holding onto something that I could not control. In fact it was controlling me.

Working on myself made it clear to see, the way my emotional absence, almost derailed my personal life and relationship. It all started with my natural guard always fighting to stay up, never-resting, especially with my husband. Do you know the type of exhaustion that creates? When you have your guard up 24/7, you are never vulnerable and you get worn down.

I had always joked in the past that I didn’t have feelings and for a long time, I kind of believed that. I was so conditioned to mask my feelings, that I kind of forgot to acknowledge my emotions, about really anything. I was dead inside. Ya, that WAS me.

I realized that my denial of certain events, certainly didn’t make it go away, regardless of how hard I tried. I was so quick to just forget the pain of all of that, that I never truly worked through it. I mean pain is a huge part of life. So it was a big mistake, stuffing it down and ignoring it, instead of tackling it head on.

My behavior became a coping mechanism so I didn’t have to feel or deal with any pain. Staying in my self-created bubble made me feel comfortable but it was definitely one of the most unhealthy things I could do to myself. I was ignoring my baggage to mask my own pain but that left me unable to cope and develop healthy relationships in life. It took me a long time to truly stomach that my “baggage” needed to be checked and left behind.

I had this deep desire to “fix” myself because I needed to finally be an emotionally available partner and parent to my children. I was unable to be a great partner for a very long time because I just kept stuffing everything inside. Eventually, I found myself self sabotaging myself because my feelings bled out and I just felt so frustrated. All of that was unnecessary and easy to avoid. If I could just become more self-aware, in regards to my emotions, things would and could improve.

I knew that I was withholding my emotions, refusing to be vulnerable with my husband, which eventually wore me down anyway. I had this misconception that being vulnerable meant you were weak but I found out slowly, it actually meant you were stronger. I made a commitment to myself, that  I no longer wanted to be held emotionally hostage, I had lived like that long enough.

I mean let’s be real for a minute. Everyone deals with things from their childhood. Clearly, they have a hand in shaping our emotional state but that does not mean that we can’t change. It is just that most people don’t know how or don’t want to change. For a very long time, my problem was that I just didn’t know how. As I do more reading, listen to self-improvement podcasts, learn more about others, I am able to see just how important it was to figure out how to change and grow.

At the time, I wanted to change solely for myself which I know is the most important factor. I had this commitment throughout my life, which was my saving grace. I would never be held back by excuses or circumstances. I feel for the most part I have always prevailed in that area. Thank God.

You see I would say this is just the way that I am. Bla, bla, bla but it was all bullshit. I literally would freeze up and cringe if someone went to hug me. That is not a good sign, despite the fact that “it was just the way I was.” No. No. No. I knew I had to change. I knew I wanted to change but how could I do that? When I had lived over thirty years being emotionally unavailable?

So much so that most people would say their first impression of me is they were “intimidated.” Ugh, I’m not cool with that, at all.  I want people to feel my true warmth, generosity and kindness that I had left hidden in me. I finally knew what the problem was. I just didn’t trust people. Until they proved themselves.

I did not want to go through life, particularly as a parent, shaping the minds of my three beautiful kids,  to not trust easily because I didn’t. I knew what caused my emotional state, to protect itself. I knew I would not utilize that as an excuse. It has impacted my life so much so, that I knew I wanted and needed to change for them. As I peel back the layers though, I wanted to change for myself mostly because I was sick of living my life so closed off. I slowly got a taste of what it was like to feel vulnerable and I truly liked feeling more free with my emotions and feelings. It made me feel more alive.

About three years ago I committed to opening myself up more. I became more transparent with my thoughts and feelings because I wanted to be myself with no holdup. I would be lying if I told you this was an easy process, it hasn’t been (you know the whole can’t teach an old dog, new tricks has some truth to it.) Along the way I would regress depending on the situation. I had encountered many times where I would quickly retreat back to my old ways. When I endured something that caused pain or discomfort, it typically caused me to revert back into my turtle shell.

This journey of letting go of the negative emotions, relationships, and feelings that no longer serve me in my quest for peace has been an interesting one. I have found my quest for peace to be astonishing, painful and one of the most impactful events in my life. I have uncovered myself again. I have released negative feelings towards people,  which I kept hidden. I acknowledged them, truly forgave, released and moved on. It is important to participate fully in your own life. I no longer wanted to be sidelined in my own game. I want to be the MVP.

Stop for just a minute.

Ask yourself this question.

Respond honestly.

Do you want to play or sit on the sidelines of your own life?

With your honest response, it is time to start developing a workable plan. You see as Tony Robbins says, “If you stop growing, you die.” I want to continuously make changes, improvements, adjustments, and release negativity. Clear head, clear heart and that is the only way I want to live my remaining years. 

Keep in mind, Rome was not built-in a day, so be patient with yourself. Know and believe, that you can and will evolve. It is so worth investing time, into your own life. That looks different for each of us. Yet, it is the same. We all suffer. We all celebrate. Choose to celebrate. Invest in yourself, your happiness and freeing your emotions. Make changes, continue to grow and create the life you are meant to live. It is time to let go and start living your best life.

 

 

 

“Females don’t Fall”- Lauren


1. What is your full name: 

               Lauren Imbriaco

2. How old are you?

                       33

3. Give us a little biographical information about yourself 

I come from a large family. I have 5 sisters and 2 brothers and absolutely love it. Growing up I was an athlete. I played soccer, basketball, ran track, softball, lacrosse, pretty much everything. I stuck to soccer and lacrosse throughout highschool and that is also when my love of weightlifting began.

After highschool I attended Ramapo College in NJ where I graduated with a business degree. After college I worked for a few years before getting married to my now husband of 7 years, Mike. Fast forward 3 more years and we had 2 beautiful children that are now 3 and 4. We also have another on the way 🙂

I am a fitness professional and competitor. I have always had a love of fitness and began teaching classes when I was in my early twenties. A few years later I got my personal trainers certificate and began taking on clients of my own. I still continue to do so and have also added competing in bodybuilding competitions as well. It was something that always intrigued me. I knew that if I never went for it I would always regret it. I am so glad I followed through!

4. If I asked your closest friend, to give me 5 words they would use to describe you, what what he/she say?

  • Intense
  • Mom
  • Dedicated
  • Loyal
  • Fit 

5. Do you see yourself the same way as your closest friend does? Yes/No explain.

Yes. These are all things that are part of my personality.

6. What does happiness mean to you?

Being content with how your life is.

7. What are some things that stand between you and complete happiness?

I tend to get very anxious and it often results in me being on edge. It’s something I wish I could control better.

8. If you could send a message to the world in 30 seconds, what would you say?

You can’t always make everyone happy. Do your best and keep pushing forward.

9. What chances have you passed up on in your life that you now regret?

I don’t feel like I’ve passed up any chances in life. There are things that I wish I could go back and do differently, but I don’t think I ever let anything get away from me that I regret.

10. How do you apply the learning from this regret to your actions today? (see question #9)

I mentioned there were things that I I wish I had done differently. I wouldn’t call it regret but more being afraid of the unknown. For example I wish I could have chosen a different major in college. The reason I didn’t was because I was afraid of not knowing what to do with my degree or fear of not being good at it. I’ve learned that you have to take chances in life and really go for what you want.

11. What would you do differently if you knew no one was judging you? Why do you care if people are judging you?

I never worry about what people are thinking of me (unless of course it is my family telling me not to do something that they feel isn’t in my best interest or is dangerous). I don’t think you should ever live your life worried about someone else’s thoughts. You only get one life to live.

12. What is the worst thing that has ever happened to you and how did you continue to move forward?

The worst thing that has ever happened to me was when my tooth cracked all the way through to my root. Sounds silly but the pain was worse the labor. I grind my teeth at night and did it to a point that I cracked not only my tooth but also the root all the way down into the gum. The pain was EXCRUCIATING. It radiated from my jaw up into my temples and my entire skull. It felt as if my skull was going to explode. I ended up having the tooth pulled in an emergency and ever since then have had to wear a mouthguard to sleep (sexy). I am terrified of anything ever happening to it because I could never go another night without it!

13. What is the best thing that ever happened to you and what did you learn from that?

The best thing that has ever happened to me was having my children. It taught me that “things” are just that, things. I don’t believe there is a greater moment in life then holding your child for the first time.

14. If karma was coming back to you, what would happen to you?

Yikes. I don’t know but I hope it’s all good.

15. What terrifies you the most?

Flying in airplanes. I haven’t done it in over 5-6 years.  

16. What did you want to be as a kid, why? Are you doing that now? If not, why not?

I honestly don’t remember what I wanted to be as a kid. I don’t think I thought about it too often. I was always so happy playing sports, being with my friends and enjoying life.

17. Whose life have you had the greatest impact on?

I would hope my children.

18. Who has had the biggest impact on your life and why?

My husband. Together we have created a beautiful life and I don’t think anyone could have more of an impact on me then the person who helped me become a mom. It’s the best gift I’ve ever received.

19. What do you want most out of your life?

To be happy and fulfilled in all aspects of my life (as a mom, wife, blogger, etc), for my children to look up to and appreciate me. I hope that my kids are never embarrassed of me or afraid to talk to me and that I can create a relationship with them where they feel like they can tell me or ask me anything without feeling scared or ashamed. Personally I am trying to grow my blog and it’s something I have been working really hard on. I hope that I can continue to make it grow and provide even more income for our family.

20. How do you plan on getting there? What is your goal and outcome to achieve # 19?

Right now we have baby no. 3 on the way and my plan for the moment is to try to be calm and enjoy life and all things that brings for us. With 2 toddlers already I know that it will be difficult but I also know that it goes fast. Of course for my children I will continue to let them express themselves freely and ask me anything that comes to their mind. For my personal goals such as my blog I plan to continue working on my SEO, do guest posting, get more organized and start reaching out to brands on my own without waiting for them to approach me or going through a network. I also plan to put more time into my blog itself in terms of being able to offer more right from my site like my custom workouts. For now they are available via request but I would like to make it easier for users and be able to offer the purchase for download right from my site.

21. What is something that you have given up on? How did you feel?

I’m not a quitter. I have never given up on anything in my life, it’s just not who I am.

22. What is something you should have given up on? How did it make you feel?

There’s nothing that I feel I should have given up.

23. Would your life be better or worse, if you knew the time and place where you would die? Explain. 

Worse. Some people might look at it like since they know they can enjoy themselves to the fullest and be prepared. For me, it would make me a nervous wreck and would be on my mind everything second of every day and I would just be waiting for it.

24. What would people say at your funeral? Are you happy with what would be said? Explain.

I think people would say I was a great mom. I was always competitive, determined, loved to dance

25. If not now, then when?

I am not a procrastinator by any means. It’s something that drives me nuts.

26. Are you holding onto something, you need to let go of?

Probably a few too many shoes and some grudges.

27. Do you think crying is a sign of weakness or strength?

I don’t think it’s either. I think crying is a normal emotion and it doesn’t dictate the type of person you are. It’s normal for people to frown when they’re mad, smile when they’re happy, cry when they’re sad. I don’t think anyone should ever be judged as a whole for showing their emotions (unless it’s all the time and over the top).

28. If you had a friend/family member who spoke to you in the same way you speak to yourself, how long would you allow that person to be your friend?

I never really thought about the way that I speak to myself. I guess I would say no. I don’t think that I give myself enough credit sometimes for all the things I tend to juggle on a daily basis.

29.When have you felt as if life was unfair? Explain.

I feel lucky to say that I haven’t had a moment like this. My family is healthy, happy and well cared for.

30. What would you regret not fully doing, being or having in your life?

I do everything fully. I never go into something half ass. I’m an all or nothing type of person.

31. What was the best or worst part about working on this activity?

Some of the questions really made me think! I don’t think there were any bad parts about it. I enjoyed taking the time to really answer the questions.

32. What is something you hope that other readers take away from your responses? 

I would hope that people see being honest with themselves (and others) isn’t so bad. It can be a nice release and a great way to get something off your shoulders. Sometimes writing things out is much easier than talking about it.  

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